The Lady Has Left the Building

After a very positive life coaching consultation I picked up my Getting Business to Come to Me book that I threw down a few months ago. I freaked out because it discouraged doing a business that was more than ONE thing. Since Namaste Gourmet is yoga AND officiating AND coaching, I stopped reading. I did decide to let go of personal cheffing, but I could not pare down anymore than that.

So, as I made the move back to NY I am trying all avenues. And in all actuality I've tried all avenues for most of my life. I am thankful for the journey and truly think that the twists and turns have led me to exactly where I'm supposed to be.

I wish I kept reading the Getting Business to Come to Me book months ago, since I think I would be further along. While the authors stress focus, as I read further in the chapter they also encourage umbrella businesses that make sense. So, while I can act, do arts administration, teach and a dozen of other things, I am confusing my potential clients. When people think of me they probably think ALL of the things I do and I need to be clear. Who am I and can I be taken seriously?

So, in a flash, I decided to work on NG solely and let go of all of the arts stuff. I announced it on Facebook this morning and got a bit of support. I will certainly satisfy my creative side and my performative qualities (through yoga and officiating) and I will do what I do best - helping and inspiring others.

Once I made the announcement I proceeded to hit my eye on the corner of my table as I reached down to turn on my power strip. I also had delivery issues with both the pet supply store and the wine store. I spent hours in my apartment waiting for things that never came. I hope these are not warning signs, because I am not afraid - black eye or no.

I was thinking of giving up this blog when my apartment was fully settled and decorated, but it feels right to do it now. So, no more bitching and complaining. No more uncertainty and wishing things to happen. No more questioning the best path.

I have chosen.

Or perhaps it has chosen me.

Over lunch last week my friend Wesley encouraged me to write my stories down especially if I let the blog go. I'm sure I will, but it may not be a public forum.

So, this here lady is back in the East where she belongs. How 'bout some gratitudes before a little over and out?

1. a forum to document the journey and a few people that followed along

2. support from some friends and family

3. great resources

4. the ability to be flexible and endure - like a true survivor

5. the strength to know what I want and to go out and get it

Two drinks in, gratitudes!

I had a really light day today. I finished my Carl Hiassen book and waited for my case from the Chelsea Wine Market. When it didn't come as expected (just like last month) I called and rescheduled. I then headed over to Jossie's who was in the process of making a cake for David Grenke's surprise birthday party. I helped her color the fondant and decorate some cupcakes. She was freaking out, but I did my best to stay on task and get it done. She was attending the party and I was not dressed for it, so I headed home. I watched the latest episode of House and made myself a yummy gin and tonic. I then made a dinner of ravioli, leftover steak and butter lettuce with half an avocado. Since I had a bottle of red opened I poured myself a glass.

Since I was a little tipsy and bored I called a number of friends - Jennifer Denning, Michael Gaffney, Angela Aquino, Suehyla El-Attar. I spoke to two of the four.

Since I could not get to the library and finished my book this morning, I had little to do. So, here I sit at the McDonald's downloading The Mentalist and checking my email.

Email was on the light side, but the show downloaded, so I will head home. Tomorrow I head back to Jackson Heights to work on the Guggenheim stillspotting project. I do need to head to The Whitney to grab my water bottle. Here's hoping it's there after leaving it in the loading dock last night. I feel things are just kind of status quo. I hope for a little bump in the next week or so.

In the meantime, there are things I am grateful for:
1. warm weather
2. thunderstorms ( I cannot remember the last time I saw lightening and heard thunder)
3. catering leftovers
4. friends who answer their phones
5. a cookbook about to be published