Remember when I said that the rejection yesterday didn't bother me? Well, guess what folks...I am back to a bit of anxiety. Gosh, it's been quite a few months since I was having that emotion for days at a time. I have a feeling that this one will also stay with me. In fact, I can go so far to say that I am having a sad day. And it's only 9AM. Uh, oh.
There's a good chance that my sadness and anxiety is only coming from change and not the audition thing, but I really don't know. The Taurus in me does not like change and I feel a bit of growth again. I know that I expected this 2 year journey to be full of change, but it's not easy, folks.
I think what also makes it harder is that it's spring break and I cannot go running to my advisors or to friends that are out of town for break. I probably should take this opportunity to journal for a while and see what comes up. More than likely I will run to campus for my speakers that I left in the Firehouse, come home and play loud music while I clean up the shithole of an apartment where I live.
Ooooh, anger. Is that the next step towards recovery?
I sure hope so.
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