This weekend my schedule is really light. It makes it a great opportunity to get shit done. However, with my crazy schedule all I want to do is sit on the couch and eat bon bons. I am tired. And I am tired of having to be so proactive about every little thing. At this time in my life, it should just be easier.
Is that just unrealistic?
Because if I have to keep working my ass off at this speed and intensity for another year I just won't make it. And I have to say the results I am getting for this proactivity certainly does not measure up to what I am putting in. I know things take time and you need to chip away a little at a time to see the grand picture, but this is ridiculous. If you asked me 15 years ago how my life would be currently, I doubt I would ever describe my current life.
Okay, enough bitching. I really need to figure out what I want and how I can get there. This seems to be a running theme in my California life. But whatever I've created is not working.
Let's talk gratitude:
1. Sunny days in Northern California
2. Late night Taco joints in the Mission
3. Strong cocktails
4. Eye contact and compliments
5. Time to reflect (no matter how hard it is)
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