I'm Still Standing

It's Thursday and I am still in my jammies since I don't have to be to the department until 1PM for my Nest costume fitting. My body is not happy. My knee has started aching and my eyes hurt. I also took a Merce Cunningham Master class yesterday morning and my calves are moaning. It's been forever since I have taken a class and am a little frightened about teaching 2 this summer.

I feel old. Or as I said to Tony last night on the way to join our friend Jeanne for her 24th Birthday, "I'm having an old day."

I have started to get over the fact that I do indeed feel old. Most people do not know that I am in my mid-30s and I have to say that I usually feel good. But as we all now know, I took way too much on this quarter.

In fact, I dropped my independent study with Barbara -- not officially -- but since it does not look like I will be teaching the Fundamentals of Movement class either in the summer or next year, there's really not a point to cram the creation of a syllabus during this quarter. Yes, Barbara is leaving and so is Melanie, but good news is that they will be available via email or phone if I have questions.

Anyway, it's 10AM and we have our presentation for CORE today. I'm sure it will completely suck, because I just cannot work with one of my group partners. In fact I knew that NOBODY else in the class would want to work with her so I was the martyr and took that on. We are working on Identity and have to create a piece that shows our individual identities and the identity of the group.

I proposed about 8 different ideas, but there was no energy around any of them. No one said "no" to them, but no one said "yes" either. Then on Tuesday, this one difficult group member brought in this completely strange and illustrative idea. I thought the easiest thing was to go with it, because WE HAD NOTHING TO SHOW and only 2 DAYS LEFT to performance! What is completely frustrating is that the third member of the group brings nothing to the table! It's okay, though, since I hate the class and I really don't care! Fingers crossed that it won't hurt my straight A status.

Wow, what was that outburst?

Anyway, here's a little list update:

MUST HAPPEN TODAY:
-- work more on choreography for They Way We Get By for tomorrow's Measure for Measure rehearsal
-- review Scenes 2 & 8 for tonight's NEST rehearsal
-- pack bag for today's CORE presentation on identity

AND THE LIST IN GENERAL:
-- observe someone either live or on film with languid qualities
-- read BFE by Julia Cho for CORE class
-- schedule time with Mindy Cooper to talk about performing in Oklahoma next year
-- work on Helen monologue for Movement on Monday
-- continue learning lines for NEST
-- complete choreography They Way We Get By
-- schedule brow waxing
-- continue reading Barteneiff book and learning anatomy/physiology terms
-- buy dry cat food