Taking Risks.

I got home from work last night and poured myself a glass of wine and heated some leftovers. Around 8PM I grabbed my phone and noticed that I missed a call since I keep my phone on silent when temping. It was Kim from the temp agency giving me the very bad news that my assignment was immediately terminated.

Open mouth, shock.

As I look at my finances this week, I started to get a little nervous. Now I am just plain freaking out. I really hate that I was given no warning and while it hurts like hell to be let go, there was nothing I could have done to change anything. At least that's what Kim said. In fact, my supervisor was very complimentary and only gave me positive feedback on the job. It was just that she didn't feel it was a right fit.

It still hurts like hell and I was quite a mess last night. I sat on the couch with my second glass of wine and scoured all of my usual job hunting sites. I applied for numerous jobs - some catering jobs, an administrative part-time position a few blocks away and an education director post. I keep thinking about what I am supposed to gain from this area of the country. However after set back after set back it seems that the lesson I need to learn here in NorCal is the get the heck out of here.

I feel like I am back at NYU without a good support base. I am trying to make friends, but there is not a huge outlet and without much money and the state of my ankle, it's not like I can take classes. I signed up for some volunteer work today and when I got there, my name was not even on the list. It took every ounce of my being from not walking out the door. But I am not about to go back to that pity party.

My google horoscope today put things in perspective:

You often take the path of least resistance and choose stability over innovation. Now, however, you are being given new ways of responding to a familiar situation that has become a bit of a rut for you. Rather than repeating history, you are on the verge of breaking out of an old habit. Taking a risk isn't always advisable, but this time it should work in your favor.

Therefore I decided to expand my job search out of the area. I really wanted to make a go of it, but I don't think I can do it. There is also something about being close to my family that I miss. I'm sure things will make themselves clear in the next few weeks. Whether options come my way or I make some hard decisions.

Risky chances here I come.