A tourist in the City

For the past 2 days I have hosted my parents in San Francisco. We are staying in a traded time share unit at The Nob Hill Inn in Union Square/Nob Hill and I feel a little touristy. We have taken walking tours with City Tours, saw Wicked at the Orpheum, tooled around in the car and traveled across the Golden Gate. It's kinda nice. I have not been overwhelmed with the food and that makes me a little sad. There have been sparks of wonderful - in the Ferry Building around the tours, tonight at dinner and the drive around the Castro, Haight-Ashbury & the Panhandle.

I think my parents are having a nice time and today when I went to teach up in Mill Valley they went to these artist studios around the corner from Christine's house boat. It was nice that she was able to entertain them until I could get back. We drove back into the city and Tony met us at the inn and we went to North Beach for some Italian fare.

Since my little vertigo incident there has been a bit of anxiety. Okay, who am I kidding? It's been a little funky for a few months now. However this week, its the uncertainty of more employment and trying to get some of my current Gravity work done. Well, that and starting to teach a new class with MTC while being observed in my first class by Cal Shakes. However last night the bomb hit when Wyatt and I finally had the long overdue email exchange that severed me from Miss Lonely Hearts. I was extremely hurt and angry with his response for the need to rehearse with everyone, however after loving comments from many people on Facebook, I am healing quite quickly.

There is still a strong mix of emotions around not being able to conquer the Bay Area, as well as actively making my mark here. In fact I felt good today, especially seeing Steve and Jasson at MTC when I was there for a faculty meeting. I no longer feel optimistic with any of the faculty applications, so it looks like I will have to go the distance to make things work here. As more work comes through with Gravity, Epiphany and MTC I am starting to plant my roots.

Let's see if they take hold.

Things I am grateful for:
1. the support of my parents
2. the generosity of Tony
3. that I can walk up hills
4. more educational and admin work
5. the lovely weather with little rain